.....Stuff you don't want to read..
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Sooo...soul-searching. I don't know how to do this...do I start with everything that's happened to me since 6th grade? Because I think I've blocked most of that out. But..I guess I should start there.
    In 6th grade, I went to Westwood Middle School. I think the first day was okay, kind of scary though. I remember homeroom, I hated because I knew people in there from Elementary School..but they were so different. I remember that I felt kind of like I missed that growing up stage everyone I seemed to know went through over the summer. I met alot of awesome people there though..like Shonna, Emerald, Kelly, Kirsten[but I would've met her @ CCF anyways], Shelby J., and probably so many other people that I'm probably forgetting. They made it good..:))
But it wasn't good enough for me, for some reason. Don't get me wrong, I love all the people I met there, even though they were sort of blunt with their umm..critiques..I think the only people that were really nice about it a few times were Yasmine and Nikki.  But they were just like critizing my clothes. I remember this one person used to call me "ugly duckling" and Mishani called me a "cunt" and one person said I looked like a moose. And then of course there was the whole "emo" thing. I remember one time, Shelby Stokes screamed that at my car when my mom was there. That hurt....and then there was the whole crush thing. Oh geez...this is humiliating to admit but I used to like, REALLY like Cooper..and Quinn..I don't know why. I never told anyone about that. I think the Quinn one was well-based, even though he was a total asshole to me. He called me emo and stuff. I got over him the summer before 7th grade..And all my  but 3 of my classes [LA, World History, and PE] kind of sucked most of the time. I had almost zero friends back then. But, I made straight A's all year :)
Although...I was really depressed that entire year. I think that was my extremely emotional year. Anyways, I ended up changing schools that summer because I didn't think I could handle two more years of that hell-hole.
Then, 7th grade started. And I met my friends that I still have now that day. They. Are. Amazing. The best friends of the world. I think I'll know them forever. Jessica. Jenna. Anna.
God..I don't know how I would've survived that year without them..or how I would've stayed at Oak View. Nothing especially humiltiating happened that year. I met amazing teachers. I think I cried once, in Mr.J's, but that was a SERIOUS one time thing. I think those are the teachers that are going to most effect the rest of my life..I know I'll know my friends from OV for the rest of my public school life. I just know it. And I love that. I love them.
I think I was really stupid for the end of 7th grade. Like major stupid. I went out with this guy whom I'm not sure I even liked at the time. I think I grew to like him..Then he dumped me for reasons unknown. And we had this awkward friendship over the summer. And once school started, we stopped talking. But, now we are talking. And its okay. Not the greatest, but its okay. I'm trying to pretend that nothing ever happened between us. Blahhh..but its hard.
Anyways...8th grade is okay. Not as great as I thought it would be. That's really all I can say to describe it. The first 2 weeks were the best...

Tell Me Whatcha Think. Its a story :)
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Just a little more. A little deeper. A little longer. A little more burgundy to stain my shirt...I make it into a sort of song, similar to that Big Red gum commerical I[I think it goes "kiss a little longer, etc." I'm not sure. I saw it in a movie once]. The knife pushes into my skin, searching for a bone to assail, but I don't let it go that far. I transfer the knife from hip to wrist. I don't ever put it to my neck, like Spyder; I don't want to die. I just need the pain to go away, so I can go and just be again. Forget all of it. Don't feel a thing. Just...let go. I close my eyes, touch the tip of the knife to purple-blue vein in my left forearm, apply pressure, and let my skin breathe. 
It bleeds for a long time. Lots of it. Eventually, I wrap my forearm in gauze( Like I said, I don't want to die) and put a huge square bandage on my hip sore. I haven't ever bothered with the Neosporin or peroxcide; Mom would notice it missing.
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Writer's Block: Memo to Myself
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If you could travel back in time, what advice would you give to your younger self?

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Depends on how far back. I'd really rather go back to May, on the night of relay for life. I'd tell myself to break up with John that night. To forget about hating people. To go on every single field trip I could. To not hold back, just because you're friends aren't there. I'd say to tell this person how you feel about this certain person. I'd tell myself to be normal, not shy at camp. I'd tell myself to not worry about you're grades, you know you're gonna pass. I'd throw myself into sooo many friendships its not even funny. I'd just give myself all this advice.

My Epic(Note: This thing contains spoilers)
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*Note: Series of flashbacks throughout*

Pre: Right now, most of the North is chaotic. The Everto’s are running wild with their royal powers (Everto’s are rainbow bloods that turned into people eating crazies, and were kicked out of the royal family but brought themselves back up in the North, which used to be absolutely nothing but desert). They’re making ridiculous punishments, arresting people for stupid reasons, and are now attempting to take over the South from the west-coast-in. They got their power by digging into the secrets of magic that had been hidden from all from the “beginning of time”, and using it to take over the previously deserted North, where they could “strengthen their powers”. After around 50 years of ruling, one of the gypsies they capture make a “prophecy” before she was killed about a mixed-blooded girl born in the South who could and would defeat them in exactly 50 years. Since then, the King had his immortal queen, Alyss, watch the Southern Royals closer. The second she heard that the South’s King (Arthur) had a baby girl with rosy red cheeks, Queen Alyss morphed herself into a baby rainbow blood girl, and had her husband send her to live with a lord who was a close friend of theirs and close to King Arthur, so she could be nearer to the girl, closer to kill her when the time came…

*Note: The reasons the RBs in the North don’t kill all the South is that they think they are still hiding secrets and they believe that they can still turn some of the RBs to their side. Plus, its only the rainbow-bloods(the royals) that can use magic, and they try to never leave their kingdom.

*Note: Rainbow bloods are just like humans- except they have access to magic and their blood is silvery and looks rainbow-like in the light when they bleed

END PRE

 

 

Phoenix is, for now, a defiant girl (she hates EVERYTHING about her life, she was sent away because of her behavior around the nobles) at an all-girls “finishing school”. She is called away when her father sends a message regarding her current step-mother and her health (She’s very ill). He says to send her in a week’s time, but, when she is caught “fraternizing” with a boy (Mason) outside of supervision during a “ball” she is sent home immediately (Mason being the one who takes her home). While they are there, the castle is attacked by a group of the Evertos’ assassins, and Phoenix is reminded of when she was seven and her oldest brother, Alex, was murdered by the Evertos’ because of her. Few are killed(only a couple of civilians, and that happens daily) She winds up arguing with her father about her brother, and he basically ignores her, telling her that he’ll have guards placed around her to protect her. Phoenix screams that she doesn’t want that, and storms out. She decides to leave. She packs only a sack full of her things, and takes her mare out to leave. Mason sees, and follows her out. Adria says she just knew it was going to happen, and was standing outside for her. During their trek across the city (because she had no idea where to go) she remembers that Alex was very close to the gypsies (Plus, it would really make her Dad mad) and decides to go to Gypsy Wood. Now, with a purpose, they head southeast, away from her world. While riding, they encounter minor survival problems and, once they get closer to the Wood, a prophet who tells Nix that she is “Marked for greatness”. Phoenix, of course, thinks the woman’s crazy so she just ignores it.

Then she gets to real gypsies (she was always used to people dressing up as them, and scamming people). She’s mesmerized and immediately in love with their lifestyle. After a few days, she gets her fortune told (just for fun). The woman who reads it is named Kaya. Kaya tells her that her life will be very important to others, that she is “special” and that she is “meant to stop our greatest enemy”. Adria freaks out after Phoenix hears that, bursting into some amount of insanity telling her that the gypsies are crazy and such. Adria tries, and tries to convince her to leave but it unsuccessful because of Mason and the gypsies telling her to at least let them try to help her. Phoenix gives in the minute Mason steps in.

After Phoenix is told that someone (who is left unnamed for the moment) will come to try to teach her self-defense, Kaya begins to try to find what element will help her(because in all the gypsy stories that’s what they ALWAYS use to defeat the enemies). She goes through about 5 tests before they figure its fire (Duh. Look at what her name is). 

After around a week, Adam gets there. She, of course, hates him when she first meets him (everyone loves him, but she thinks he’s a jerk…). He tests her right before she’s even been taught ANYTHING (‘cuz she has this I-can-do-anything-you-can- idea around him, brought on b her ability to do magic). He tests her physically, running and stuff, teaching her self-defense (to help her so he won’t be completely useless).

About three weeks later, they get a letter from her father (We later find that Adria gave away their location and it was actually sent by one of her contacts in the capital).

So, with Mason (who’s been ignored for weeks now), Adam, and Adria, she leaves reluctantly. It only takes them two days to get back to Crepidoinis and find that her step-mom is now deathly ill (Also, we later find that Adria had one of the cooks poison her step-mom so that Phoenix would be sent home, and able to be reached). La-la-la she gets into more fights with her Dad, except this time it’s about her mother (She was a human, and therefore not supposed to be with her Father so she’d been sent away somewhere, and had to leave Phoenix there in the capital). Some of the Everto’s attack (again) and this time Phoenix is feeling better about herself because she wasn’t useless this time AT ALL. Her father yells at her about that, demanding he know where she was. She gets all mad and ends up setting most of the house on fire. Her father gets really, really mad and locks her away in his stone dungeon. She, duh, escapes with the help of Adam. So, they hide out for about a day, until Mason and Adria find them. Adria tells them how they hadn’t killed any of the Evertos’, they had just made them scat. This is when Adria reveals herself as the evil Queen Alyss, and attacks Phoenix with Slither (One of her henchmen) and Aya’s help. Mason manages to capture Aya, and Adria and Slither run off relatively unharmed. Phoenix, Mason, and Adam are able to get Aya to reveal most of what Adria(or Alyss) had planned (but she didn’t reveal any secrets). Ok, so, then for a few hours they hide out, trying to think of what to do. Phoenix decides that she doesn’t want to hide, and all the rest of that. So, they get Aya to tell them where Slither & Adria are hiding (its in a cave, off of a cliff). They saddle their horses, and ride out there.

So, there’s a bunch of drama and suspense leading up to that.

Then the fight actually happens.

There’s a little conversation between Adria and Phoenix, about who Phoenix’s parents (her dead brother is actually her Dad, her mother is still a nobody) really are and the prophecy. Something happens ( Along the lines of Phoenix finally thinking that she can do this) and Phoenix and ends up burning Adira (a.k.a. Alyss) until she dies. The king of the North dies because of this (at the same time) and so do every other one of the RBs in the North. And all the North is saved (yay!!!). But Adam died in the process of Phoenix killing Adria (the fire touched him, and he died).

Phoenix becomes all sad and depressed( but she gets happy again when she sees the effect she had on the world) , even when she’s crowned queen of all the land ( Because her new-found-dad would’ve been king, she’s now queen, and gets to kick her “dad” down to a lesser level. Its all of the land because the royals in the North are dead). She ends up with Mason and Aya becomes one of the castle guards. And everyone lives happily after. THE END!!

 

 

SETTING

  • 245 A.D.H.
  • Story takes place mostly in the South, until the end,
  • In this country, no one knows about other countries, or that there are other planets and such.
  • Cities, especially the capitals, are all made of stone and brick with narrow alleyways between the buildings and too many people in it. The cities are really where everyone lives because its mostly mountains on the sides and there are mostly deserts in the North.
  • It’s really medieval with zero tech stuff. Everyone walks, rides a horse, or rides in a carriage.

 

 

CHARACTERS

1.      Phoenix

  1. Appearance

-          Lithe build

-          5”6 in height

-          Auburn hair

-          Green oval-shaped eyes (change color)

-          Braces-straight teeth

  1. Sports (develops later in story)

-          Sword-fighting

-          Hand-to-hand combat

  1. Family Life

-          Motherly figure: Her grandmother

-          Doesn’t live with Mom

-          (Find out later) That her Dad is really Alex (the guy she thought was her brother)

-          Lots money (her family royalty)

-          Alexander (Dad/brother) died when she was 7 to save her.

-          Has two living brothers: Max and Kyle

  1. Friends/Relations

              D1. Adria : Her best friend

-          5”11 in height

-          Dark black, almost purple straight hair

-          Calm, Cool, Collected air about her

-          Moody

-          Lives with Mom

-          On swim team

-          Never met Dad 

                     D2. Mason

-          Known Phoenix since they were five

-          Black, greasy straight hair that’s always in his face

-          About 5’7

-          Easy-going personality

-          In love with Phoenix

                      D3. Belinda

                               - Sweet/Nice

                               - Kind of chunky

                               -Shortly cropped dirty-blonde hair

                       D4. Bree

-          Fiery red curly hair

-          4”10 in height

-          Snappy personality

-          Attitude

-          Deep blue eyes: a throw off from her red hair

-          Really, really skinny could pass for a 5th grader.

 

D5. Erik

-Thinks he’s too cool for everyone

-Curly jet-black hair

-Tan face

-Mostly muscle

 

D6. Andrew

-Dorky

- Large glasses

-Reads a lot (his life-long dream is to be a librarian)

- A bit of a hermit

- Hunched shoulders

-Very short, military style hair cut

               

 

 

D7. Andrea

-          Peppy

-          Loves everything

-          Hates royalty (but is ok with Nix.)

-          Seriously blonde hair

D8. Adam

-          17 years old

-          Nix’s trainer

-          Used to live on the streets

-          Very close to her father (except it’s the whole enemies closer thing)

-          Brown-blonde hair

-          Green eyes

-          5’11 in height

  1. Personality and Flaw

-          Flaw: Thinks she can do anything on the outside, but doesn’t believe in herself on the inside (low self-esteem)

-          Back-sasses her grandmother and father

-          Argues a lot with her “Father”

-          Thinks too much about the past, and doesn’t think things through

-          Over-confidence

-          Teasing

-          Whiny sometimes

-          Age: 15

   

 

COMPLETE LIST OF CHARACTERS

              I.      Phoenix (Major)

           II.      Adria (Major)

         III.      Adam (Major -- mentor)

        IV.      Mason (Major)

           V.      Andrea (Minor)

        VI.      Bree (Minor)

      VII.      Erik (Minor)

   VIII.      Andrew (Minor)

         IX.      Belinda (Minor)

           X.      Arthur (Medium character, her “father”)

         XI.      Josephine (Kind of minor, but a bit important, her “grandmother”)

      XII.      Max (Minor)

    XIII.      Kyle (Minor)

   XIV.      Kaya (her gypsy “mentor”)

      XV.      Headmistress Winchcombe (Very Minor)

 

 

 

EVILS

1.Ann (Henchwoman, helped get Phoenix kicked out of school)

2. Slither (Henchmen, who helped kill Alex)

3. Aya (Turncoat, gives info to Phoenix)

((And many more that’ll probably be made up on the spot))

**VICTIMS TO BE THOUGHT OF WHEN THEY COME UP**


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I know its been weeks..and to those of you who actually read this..I'm Sorry. Really, I am. I've just been too busy. I've had to do school projects(like this ridiculous plan for Nitti's Epic that I'm not sure if I still want to write..I'll post my little-ittle plan on here soon..and the nice people wil give me commentz :)
Right now..I wish I could just stay in perfect 7th grade forever, seriously. I love it here and it surprises me too. First day of school here, I hated it. And now I don't want to leave. It just..sucks, it makes me want to cry..I love everyone here..and summer's gonna suck. I love that I can still talk to my old friends, and not have it be weird..I love my teachers, who are perfect :)   Maybe I'm just in a "I-Love-The-Whole-World" mood..but it feels like that more, and more often.  Except when I'm hating on a few of my friends in my head..that part sucks because I know its misplaced hate..and it sucks when I feel like a speck, nothing compared to all of them..and all their most-of-the-time-perfectness. But when I don't think about that, my life is good :)
God..I get all depressed just thinking about what summer's going to be like..No school..which means practically no friends around..but it means that I might get to go away to dazzling, bright, shiny, gothic Davidson College and take a Creative Writing Class(So maybe, these posts will get a little better soon..) So..um..I think I'm going to make a list now..(be warned):

THINGS THAT HAVE HAPPENED IN MY LIFE MOST RECENTLY:
*Got Straight A's on my report card(woo!!!!)
*Forgotten to take some papers to school(whoops..)
*Been called really pretty(I know..kind of weird to put that there..but it makes me feel good about me..)
*Wished I was dead and/or had the guts to commit Su about 20x 
*Prayed for my friends to just shut their mouths around John..(BTW, he's been mentioned before..and now he's my boyfriend!! aah!!)
*Gotten yelled at for talking to my friends too much by my parents
*Saw a movie
*Finished a very few books
*Been assigned like 2 HUGE projects within the last 3 weeks
*Been obsessed with the Plain White T's and their amazing-ness
*Wished my boyfriend would ACTUALLY talk to me at school..and then thought better of it when I remembered how immature he is around his friends
*Hated one of my besties' boyfriend 'cuz he's a jerk
*Prayed for rain(and my prayers were answered)
*Skipped CCF(Sshh!! Don't tell anyone..)
*Told that a jerk likes me
*Voted on the Sunshine State Standards Books( Kingdom Keepers by Ridley Pearson won)
*Used too much text messaging(but we have unlimited..so I'm safe)
*Wished that my parents would get a divorce(that dream hasn't come true)
*Felt like crying in front of everyone(I pushed back that feeling)
*Been so happy I felt like crying
*Felt like puking
*Thought I was fat(and didn't eat because of it..once again..don't tell anyone! Its like not a problem..although Mom says that it just makes me fat..)
*Made brownies in HomeEC(which was REALLY fun)
*Wished I was another person
*Made a new friend(His name's Austin and he's pretty ok :)
*Argued with the guy my sister likes(Everyone thinks its flirting..but as long as he doesn't talk to me again:I'm clear)
*Thought about kissing John..and its supposed to happen really soon..


Aaaahh...So..As you can see I've been pretty busy in every aspect of my life(You know, emotional and physically..)
And now I got to go cuz my sister is kicking me off..TTYL!! 

Writer's Block: Confidences
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Who do you think it is easier to talk about your problems with: your friends, your family, or strangers?

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I think its easier to talk to my friends..sometimes people I've never met(like ones I've "met" over the internet) but..that's only like one person(you know who you are)

Unwind: Review...(Really Short)
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Five Stars.
Review done in the format of my school's "booktalk"

I LOVE THIS BOOK. And I can't really put into words why. But here's all the stuff for it:

The Main Character(s)

 

Risa:  is an orphan and is being unwound to cut orphanage costs. She makes her escape from a bus, and joins Connor on his I’ll-run-away-until-I’m-Eighteen plan. She likes playing the piano.

 

Connor:  is a “trouble-maker” who’s being unwound while his parents vacation in the Bahamas. He attempts to leave with his, now ex-girlfriend, Ariana but she doesn’t leave and he ends up leaving alone. While running away, he manages to cause a major car crash that lets Risa escape and Lev’s priest make Lev run.

 

 

Lev:  has known of his being unwound since he could understand talk because of his parent’s religion, and is being unwound as a “tithe”, the payment for the 1/10 of his parent’s life to God. He doesn’t willingly run away, he’s kidnapped. His personality changes dramatically after he becomes a “clapper”.


PLOT:

This book, while being thought-provoking, remarkable, and sickening, isn’t for everyone. No one under 12 or 13 should read this book.


 

 

Connor Lassiter is quote unquote “trouble-maker” who’s going to be unwound because of it. Risa is a fifteen year old orphan who’s being unwound to cut costs. And Lev is a tithe, being unwound as his parent’s one-tenth payment to society/God. All three lives twine together when Connor causes major car wreck that frees Risa, and Lev. Now, all they have to do is stay away from the authorities and make it to the magical age of 18. Believe me, it’s a lot harder than it sounds.


Hooked:Unwind has many genres shoved into it. Science fiction, coming-of-age, and adventure are just a few. You’ll want all the characters to survive, even the one you hate most.


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So..For school we have this project to make a timeline of your life(you can go up to 10 years into the future) with only ten events.  It has to be in "slideshow" format..soo..here's my favorite pictures from ALL the slides:








So..I'm going to start actually writing something. First off, I AM SOOOO GLAD THAT ITS MARCH!!
Second, I want to say that a book that I've been wanting "P.S. I Loathe You" did not measure up to what I thought it could be. However, almost every series of books has one "bad' book where everything is crap, and most of them still turn out good. Riiiiighhtt? So, cross your fingers for "Boys R Us".
Third, I AM DYING to get my hands on Paradise Lost. Literally dying, earlier I had this crap headache and I think its a sign of enternal bleeding.
Fourth, I'm hating this project for Mr.J even though it makes me feel like a big smarty for being able to get the hard-hard project :)
Fifth, I cannot wait 'til the FCAT. I know everyone hates it, and I hate it. But its still F-U-N. I mean, come on. I get to miss Science!!! And I hate Science. Soo..woo-hoo for me!!
Sixth,  Did ya know that this month is the Vernal Equinox? The Goddess for it is the Germanic Goddess Ostara. Awesomez!! I'll go find a site about it...



10 SECONDS LATER....


Ok..Here it is: http://www.geocities.com/SoHo/Cafe/1614/Celtwicc/Wicca/Wicca04.htm

Seventh, I am so totally glad for February to be g-o-n-e, gone. Because February is when: Danny asked me out.  





***I DONT REMEMBER WHAT I WAS WRITING SO THIS WILL REMAIN UNFINISHED***
 


Writer's Block: If Animals Could Talk
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If you could ask your pet any question (and they could answer you), what would it be?

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Ok..I already ask my kitten questions and she DOES answer me, its just in cat-speak so I can't really understand it. But if she could answer me in human-english-speak, I'd say this.

"Hey Belly, Are you happy here or do you want to go back to your old home?"

Writer's Block: Words to Live By
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What is your personal motto or favorite quotation?

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